resultz!

well,today i've gotten my results,n i was DEPRESSED!y?cz i aimed too high tat i couldnt achieve it..the paper was SUPER hard,seriously did not expect it,BUT i hv some sort of arrogance in me..i ALWAYS wanna finish the paper first,my time range of finishing a paper is mostly between 5-20 mins,even if the exam is an hr plus longXP

AND another prob abt me is..i NEVER study o.o i just do some exercise from time to time,and just read the text book even if its full of crap while doin another like,3 thingz,so yea i noe i hv a VERY bad attitude,but the arrogance in tis is abt smart brains x.x i've ALWAYS gotten gud resultz,so i NEVER hv to worry,im the top 10 student,so i'll always think 'u achieve tis by studying n cheating*for some*,bt i did it by brains alone',so yea i noe,im very bad=(((i have nothing against it,i just feel proud and more confident to noe i did it all alone,and so tis is 2 arrogance..

normally i DUN CARE about my results,but since i was rewarded for getting good results,i wan gud results=)))so i use the rewards as motivation to b more careful in exams x.x owh yea n 1 more thing,the last exam,i put a JAY CHOU pic in front of me while doing the exam JAY CHOU hv been my favvvv singer since i was 9,im 15 now,and as loyal as eva! so i believed tat jay chou helped me get all the gud resultz,cz when his pic was thr,i was motivated so i did the same in tis exam

so in tis exam,i prayed,but not fully sincerely=((and i was as arrogant as eva cz my resultz kept gettin better,so i was like,i cn do it,no prob,til i realise,i wasnt closeT^Tmy results drop A LOT,not me alone though,but i was CRASHED,i was soooo DISAPPOINTED!tis is y i dun like setting goals,but since my goals always meet in the past,i just kept going,well i really regret=((

when my mom advice me to b more careful and all all i said was'i gt it man,jz chill!i gt it',but i proved otherwise...tat really broke me=((its the first time i've been soooo disappointed in my results!FIRST!

BUTTTTTTT,i STILL thank God,cause tis dreadful experience made me wake up,i step down and humble myself..normally i keep these thoughts to myself for self confidence,im normally humble unless i wanna b better than some1 else den my pride shows,i just never realise i was soooo egoistic in my studies!i realise,JAY CHOU isnt the 1 helping in my resultz,it motivates me,bt it DOESNT help me in my resultz,so i wanna depend on God more=)))the nxt exam,it'll b the trail for my BIG exam,PMR,well its not a big deal,but i wan straight As=))i promised some1 VERY dear to me,so i'm gonna achieve it!i heard God tell me to stop comparing resultz,n jz gv it my all in my exam,depends ONLY on Him ANDD for the lil rewards,i dun gt to choose...my mom will chose,bt she mustnt tel me b4 the exam ends=((its gonna b a challenge,BUT well,i shall obey=)))

i wanna stop being arrogant abt my resultz,for it is MY CHOICE to not study in the first place,so wat if ppl choose to study?AND i oso thank God,for my results could hv been worse,but its still ok,although i fail for all my standardsT^Tbut its NOT the end=DDDpraise GOD=DDD

God,please help me to focus more in my exam and help me improve,LORD i NEED your help,and help me be more dependant on you,for i could never do this alone=((sorry for not depending totally on YOU from the start,please help me LORD,in Jesus name,AMEN!