DISAPPOINTMENT

YUP 2day i was VERY disappointed,cause on tues,i had sports competition,bt i wasnt involved cz i was involved with too many d,so they put my name for others..so on tues,thr was long jump,well me n my frenz decided to jump jz for fun,so i kept trynna break my previous records,which i did,bt in between,i felt i sort of...bent my leg?idk its jz SUPER pain,at the bone n all n when i put pressure on it,it hurts=(so i had to run 2day,which is thurs=/

I din thk the injury would affect my 200m race,until wed i realize my muscle aches,n yea i had to run 2day,so i prepared myself..i couldnt walk normally cz my muscles hurt really bad,bt i tried to run...i was leading bt at the curve,i slowed down=((my legs jz couldnt take it!i came in second=((*gud enough?*NO!for years,in primary n currently secondary,i have ALWAYS been first,so when i gt 2nd i was...devastated?AND my injury got worse...i was....limping?and panting AS BAD AS MY DOG and i jz...couldnt feel my legs much..so yea=(bt it gt better=/bt its stil purple nw,n a lil...swollen and really pain=(bt im VERY disappointed=(

Im sure God gv me tis obstacle for a purpose,and i wanna noe tis purpose,bt im gonna gt first for the other runs=DDhope God helps me=(im really a soreloser to thingz i always win,so when i lose=/i'll crash inside so mayb tis was to...awaken me?but either way,i hope God heals me FASt=DD

my lovable nephew

Me and my nephew are quite close,and he's all the way in singapore.From time to time,we will talk on fb=))we normally talk about games,so while i was reading the testimony about heaven and hell,he ask me to play a game,which i din really wan anything distracting me from reading it,but i rmb,last dec,he told me he blieve in Jesus n God!tat really shocked me and he's oni...11 i thk o.o God called him,so i decided to tell him about God more and i'll continue praying for his salvation=DD
its a joy to see God working in young Christian lies,i just hope they dont drift away from God,so i will try my best to bring him to God,please pray for me and him=))thx=))

heaven and hell

http://www.testimoniesofheavenandhell.com/2011/03/angelica-zambrano-was-shown-the-kingdoms-of-heaven-and-hell-and-the-return-of-christ/

hey every1,i noe tis is a VERY long testimony,but take time to read,it really fires you up to think of others!

FEARED!

O..M..G..for the past...2dayz?i was soooo scared!my fren was nt talking to me cz..well we had tis 'frenly argue' which lead to him taking my shoe den i took his bag n he took mine n yea LOL so yea thingz gt a lil...serious?cz he put dirt n sand n my pens in my shoe so i was a LIL upset,a LIL=/bt i wanted to stop the 'war' so i threaten to do smth VERY bad=(((so i did it n well,he tried talking 2 me bt din hear my response,so after tat we din talk n he said its better for me if we're nt frenz...so yea=((((he was really...emo?n i was really depressed n he kept ignoring n emo-ing.so its really hard=((bt he said its his 'punishment'=((haizzz=(((i was soooo depressed!i couldnt do ANYTHING right=((

n yea i prayed,for 2 dayz=((n 2day,FINALLY God answered my prayer!OMG i was soooo happy!tis fren is VERY dear to me,he's like my brother=33i cant lose a fren like him=((EVER!so yea i was really glad when he told me by doing wat i did affected him,bt all's gud nw=))at least we're frenz again n yes,jz like normal=DDDtalkin on the phone for hrs=DDDDso praise God!i dunwanna lose a fren nt worth losing=((

resultz!

well,today i've gotten my results,n i was DEPRESSED!y?cz i aimed too high tat i couldnt achieve it..the paper was SUPER hard,seriously did not expect it,BUT i hv some sort of arrogance in me..i ALWAYS wanna finish the paper first,my time range of finishing a paper is mostly between 5-20 mins,even if the exam is an hr plus longXP

AND another prob abt me is..i NEVER study o.o i just do some exercise from time to time,and just read the text book even if its full of crap while doin another like,3 thingz,so yea i noe i hv a VERY bad attitude,but the arrogance in tis is abt smart brains x.x i've ALWAYS gotten gud resultz,so i NEVER hv to worry,im the top 10 student,so i'll always think 'u achieve tis by studying n cheating*for some*,bt i did it by brains alone',so yea i noe,im very bad=(((i have nothing against it,i just feel proud and more confident to noe i did it all alone,and so tis is 2 arrogance..

normally i DUN CARE about my results,but since i was rewarded for getting good results,i wan gud results=)))so i use the rewards as motivation to b more careful in exams x.x owh yea n 1 more thing,the last exam,i put a JAY CHOU pic in front of me while doing the exam JAY CHOU hv been my favvvv singer since i was 9,im 15 now,and as loyal as eva! so i believed tat jay chou helped me get all the gud resultz,cz when his pic was thr,i was motivated so i did the same in tis exam

so in tis exam,i prayed,but not fully sincerely=((and i was as arrogant as eva cz my resultz kept gettin better,so i was like,i cn do it,no prob,til i realise,i wasnt closeT^Tmy results drop A LOT,not me alone though,but i was CRASHED,i was soooo DISAPPOINTED!tis is y i dun like setting goals,but since my goals always meet in the past,i just kept going,well i really regret=((

when my mom advice me to b more careful and all all i said was'i gt it man,jz chill!i gt it',but i proved otherwise...tat really broke me=((its the first time i've been soooo disappointed in my results!FIRST!

BUTTTTTTT,i STILL thank God,cause tis dreadful experience made me wake up,i step down and humble myself..normally i keep these thoughts to myself for self confidence,im normally humble unless i wanna b better than some1 else den my pride shows,i just never realise i was soooo egoistic in my studies!i realise,JAY CHOU isnt the 1 helping in my resultz,it motivates me,bt it DOESNT help me in my resultz,so i wanna depend on God more=)))the nxt exam,it'll b the trail for my BIG exam,PMR,well its not a big deal,but i wan straight As=))i promised some1 VERY dear to me,so i'm gonna achieve it!i heard God tell me to stop comparing resultz,n jz gv it my all in my exam,depends ONLY on Him ANDD for the lil rewards,i dun gt to choose...my mom will chose,bt she mustnt tel me b4 the exam ends=((its gonna b a challenge,BUT well,i shall obey=)))

i wanna stop being arrogant abt my resultz,for it is MY CHOICE to not study in the first place,so wat if ppl choose to study?AND i oso thank God,for my results could hv been worse,but its still ok,although i fail for all my standardsT^Tbut its NOT the end=DDDpraise GOD=DDD

God,please help me to focus more in my exam and help me improve,LORD i NEED your help,and help me be more dependant on you,for i could never do this alone=((sorry for not depending totally on YOU from the start,please help me LORD,in Jesus name,AMEN!

song=))

1 of my favvv song from hillsong,VERY powerfull,hear tis n b sure to noe God catches every tear tat falls=))

its called SO YOU WOULD COME by hillsong=))

distraction

lately i hv been having a lt of distractions,among all,a new game my fren introduced=))its called adventure quest world,n every1 says im addicted to it cz i ply it a lt,n srsly a lt,i started plyin abt last week n im lvl 24,all class rank 10 o.o my frenz thk im crazy LOL so bcz of tis game,i havent been able to spend enough time v God

i slp late,wake up late n continue my game,i pray to God bt tat isnt enough!i've learnt tat i mz manage my time more wisely if i wanna follow closely to God=))

motivated

well God said He'll take my voice away,cz i wanna b a singer n its kindda my passion,He said He'll take it away n rite nw i dun really hv voice n falling sick,hope God will gv it bc to me soon

anw,today,i was playing my on9 game nicely,when out of no whr my fren texted me~well last nite he did too n said 'u're worth it' which made me feel gud abt myself,n 2day he told me abt hw Joseph was sold n being a slave n all,he jz tot of me when his preacher preached abt joseph,n he said 1 thing tat realy motivated me..'i blieve God wil use you to inspire many ppl's life,so dun gv up' n tat really woke me up,cz falling sick n all,i've been bz n i din really hv time for God,well 2morro i hv the whole day to myself n i choose to spend more time v God=))

God provides

so well,ytd i went to a lunch at lil cottage,n i needed trans to go PTS from thr,well i had many trans issues ytd bt God told me nt to worry n tat He wil provide,so some hw my mom manage to find trans for me to go thr,bt i hv no idea hw i was goin to PTS O.O

when i first reached lil cottage,i was one of the earliest,so i went to the toilet for quite some time,when i came bc,the first person tat talked to me was Grace,her first ques was 'u nid trans to PTS rite?i live some whr thr i cn drop u later=))" i was like O.O i din even ask any1 LOL God is jz amazing=)))

God sees my heart

well tis just happened like,10 mins ago?AMEN!a few mths ago when i was still with joshua,thr was an event called revolution,i went with him,he bought the cd bt i did not..i REGRET!

so i've always wanted to ask him to burn me a copy,but i was kindda afraid of rejection n wat he would think of me,so after ytd talking to him abt the conference n the miracle,i just felt not so akward talking to him..somehow,God just took away the borderline

so if u guys were wondering,he was the 1 who broke up with me,so yea~he hardly starts the conversation with me,but just now,he talked to me,he said 'hey,u hv the actsperiment cd?'for a moment,i was blur,cz i din noe wat he was talking abt,it was out of the sudden,so after he told me it was the revo cd,i lighten up,i was like,HEY!OMG!tat was wat i wanted bt i din even ask him OMG!so after that i said yea i would like a copy so he gave me a link to download the whole album,i was amazed!he talked to me AND blessed me with wat i wanted

i din even tel any1 i wanted the cd,i din pray abt it,but God sees the heart,and He made a way for me to get wat i wan=DDi told him n he said God hv a way of doing thingz,n he admitted tat he din even noe i wanted it LOL so yea,God works in ways we just cant imagine,it was soooo unexpected!

answered prayer

yesterday,it was the last day for the conference,n i tot,wow today is the day,the oni day out of the 3 dayz i could invite my frenz due to transport,so i noe,i MUST invite my few closest frens..God blessed me with beautiful friends,the prob is....the closest ones to me are malay*islam/muslim*.,which is oso most of the ppl i hang out with..i was like,OMG cz..u noe,i love dem,i really do and they are seriously the CLOSEST to me besides God,and i really cry out for their salvation,honestly,whole heartedly so i prayed,that my malay friend could attend to the night conference.I kne2w,i could jz sense that God was gonna make miracles happen that nite,i knew smth big was coming,i knew that kamal,hafiz(my 2 closest guy malay fren) and sean(my already-a-Christian-friend) was currently staying together just for a few dayz,they're very close to each other,you just cant imagine!=Dso i tot its a gud chance to bring them to the nite event..

anw,for those who doesnt know,malays hv a ruling that(tis is oni in Malaysia,the place im in) if u're an islam(malay religion),u must b an islam for life,those who turns away from islam wil b persecuted(i think).those who force a malay to a Christian event wil b in ISA,an unofficial jail i think,so my mom was,quite afraid to bring them,bt i now,those fear is oni there because thr is no faith,cz i blieve i will b protected by God in every obstacle,so wat if i was caught to ISA?i might even bless some1 thr(hey,with God,NOTHING is impossible)

so when i was having my lunch break(i tot of inviting dem in the mid of the conference),i reconfirm with sean again,cz i already told him the night b4 tat i wanted to invite dem,he said tat it was ok,thr was permission n all,bt later hafiz called me and told me he'll reconfirm with me in another 3 hrs O.O so after the afternoon session,i waited,cz God told me after i on my com,oni i cn ask dem,so i was like,apa ni?y sooo long?bt i obeyed=)i did not touch the com for 2 dayz cz i was soooo busy,after checking my notifications on fb,hafiz called n he said he probably cant go n tat he was truly sorry,i said its ok,n i tot,mayb it wasnt the rite time God wanted them to go?so i just continued with my stuff...BUT...after a few mins,hafiz called me n told me his dad allowed him to go..1 thing abt hafiz,he's half malay half chinese,apparently his dad is the muslim,not his mom n his dad gave him permission,that really took me off guard!i din expect that!i was soooo excited,i was SCREAMING over the phone (im female,my voice is kindda sharp LOL)

although they went,they did not accept=(((saddddddddddd but,i noe God is working in their life=DDi also prayed that my frenz wil reconnect with God,n tat they wil b close to Him again,sean,he told me tat he spoke in tongues,for the first time!so did i bt i stil dun really dare to speak hahahx bt i'll try=))he told me he was REALLY beaming with joy,for he said he tot he did not hv the gift,n b4 i spoke in tongues,i told hafiz tat its not a language,n tat i cant understand it,but i told him i did not have the gift..tat nite,the gal who spent time trying to tel me wat He had in store for me,so she told me 'you have the gift,you just have to b free and receive it',i oso prayed for my ex,well he's oso a Christian n i REALLY love him,its just a pity it ended tis way..but we still talk,sometimes?his name is joshua..sort of LOL i talked to him ytd,i could c his passion for God burning again,n i did not feel soooo hard talking to him again!God is AMAZING!

God's Calling

Well,yesterday,i was deeply touched in a youth conference,called 'Generation CRY'.It was powerful.The pastor asked us to let our past go..It was a tough struggle for me,for my past was very tough on me,nobody knows how to advice me,n tat was how complicated my life was..tat nite,i decided to surrender all to God,i wept out loud,my pants all drown with tears,i told God that i really nid forgiveness..i've been going to Church since i was just born,i believed in Jesus in a young age,it was my first love to serve God,to be a living testimony to others and to touch peoples lives..i still remember my prayer that night..i wept,and im nt saying everything is ok right now,but i know that God will restore the brokeness..so last nite,i called my friend for 4 hours over the phone,i shared with him all i was feeling,den i realize my calling when i was young,i realize tat i feared failure,i realize that,im trying too hard to b perfect..i could sense a calling,but i wasnt sure..today at the conference,the pastor preached about the calling of God,thats when i know its not by chance i felt a calling,for it is God calling,so i responded to that call,i ask God to help me touch lives and just be a living testimony to others..i know i really wan my frenz to come to God and to call upon His name,for when we call upon His name,we WILL be saved,Amen?i do not fear,for i am covered by the blood of the LAMB=))i suddenly had a picture of blogging and touching lives,i believe God is asking me to touch lives through blogging,hopefully i will touch many people's lives=))any burden,any sorrow,any hardship,you can ask me about it,i wil ask the LORD to help me guide you.=))